feeling quite reluctant to have sch starting soon next week... perhaps embarking my own varsity life isnt tt easy after all... getting prepared is the worst feeling ever... started to feel more for my bro & my frenz who had started university studies ahead of mi... the problem is: why am i worried abt all these?

im pretty stuck by the decision of continuing my freelance trainer job or taking up see peng's offer as his part-time stuff in Pharmatech Resources... i know he's been trying to help mi in my financial status, but coping wif my studies is another priority to make... and i hav to set tt as my main... i should probably stablize my schedule b4 deciding on all these... my training classes are gonna die off soon... perhaps juz in time to prepare for exam week in SIM...

"ORD.... back to studies... get degree.... so happy..... "

does it sound familiar to guys?

it juz keeps ringing in my head...... =P


Young Guy's BG

At Andersen Air Force Base, Guam, a man in civilian clothes approached an airman and requested a vehicle pass.

The young airman, fresh out of technical training, asked to see his military ID, driver's license and his vehicle registration. Noticing the letters BG on the man's identification, the new airman asked, "What's BG stand for -- Big Guy?"

"No," the man replied, leaning over the counter. "Try Brigadier General."

well, sch gonna start in a week's time... got my timetable & it looks crappy... somehow i was bluffed by the fact tt i cant allocate the lessons for myself.. all the lessons r fixed... the most worst thing is: there's lessons every sat!!! =( how am i gonna go for worship prac??? haiz....

anyway, wat im gonna tell u may spooked u & either tickles u wif a laugh...

there's this old man who stays next to my block.... not really tt old, i suppose... he likes to go for a drink at my house's coffeeshop... everybody would recognise him from far because of his limbing movements... tt week when my dad passed away, he passed by the funeral site & asked mi abt my dad's condition, asking mi how my dad passed away etc.... i had a little talk wif him b4 he headed back home...

few days ago, guess wat?

i heard from my mum tt he passed away due to a serious fall at my house downstairs... !!! i couldnt believe wat i was hearing... 1 mth ago, he asked mi abt my dad, & now he's gone too....

believe it or not...


managed to get Pharma Inc. website up onto the net.... perhaps, the 2 months' work had been paid off from juz a simple scratch of a logo to a multi-graphic website.... i started off wif juz a company logo & viola! the website is up, full of international pictures & enriching content... (hmm... the pictures are all royalty-free...)

next one coming up.... Pharma Connectiv!!

thanks, see peng! =)


*Military Time*

My wife Delores never quite got the hang of the 24-hour military clock. One day she called the orderly room to speak with me. The person who answered told her to call me at the extension in the band rehearsal hall.

"He can be reached at 4700, Ma'am," the soldier advised.

With a sigh of exasperation, my wife responded, "And just what time is that?"


my life is juz empty without u...

i missed u so much... somehow i nv think tt u're gone so far from us... perhaps its juz the absence tt got used to it... nv felt tt u really left us... but i know u r looking gd & doing fine on ur end... God will take gd care of u rite now... somehow i also feel tt u r still around...

i wept when i missed u... but i braced myself up to live a better & meaningful life... i know u r watching over us from far, missing us too... i cant really face this world alone... but with u, everything is possible... ur memories pulled us thru obstacles...

perhaps i dun really wanna think too much... but i miss u...






i went to watch Evan Almighty at AMK Hub tis evening & i think this is probably the best sequel from Bruce Almighty... channel 5 has its first premiere for bruce almighty... once again, u hav seen jim carrey being "God" for the time being, trying to save the world... Are you sure God really takes a vacation & let Bruce handle his job??? Haa..... ridiculous, isnt it?

Evan Almighty is something different from the lst movie.... the story of Noah & the Ark relived into the movie on Evan Baxter.... building an ark using simple tools may seems impossible in our modern context.. but after u hav watched the movie, perhaps u can see how Noah built his ark using the same kind of tools, as wat is written in the bible... apart from this, there're many parts of the movie which can be apply to our daily lives.... i like this favourite sentence... this was taken when "God" was talking to joan, evan's wife in the restaurant.....

If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does
he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God
give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone
prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy
feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?

i guess it really makes sense tt we r taking God for granted... in our minds, we were always be waiting for God to answer our prayers, but yet God give us chances & time to fulfill our own wishes...... we cant be relying on God too often... its all depend on ourselves, whether wat do we do to fulfill our thoughts.....

well... signing off here... gonna slp soon...


i thought i can handle my emotions thru this time, but i realise they were all hanging on me, pulling mi down... decelerate my pace... telling myself to be strong but yet im not.... probably i had enough of all these... all the unwanted thoughts in my mind...

for now, i surrender all these to God.... let Him take control of everything... Be it emotions or problems faced now... i give it all to Him rite now.... !!

All i need now is peace.... juz grant mi tt....


its been 2 weeks since dad passed away... & happy birthday, dad.....

if u r still around, probably we'd be celebrating for u rite now... together wif mum, bro, sis, alan & claire... but now u're gone... still, i miss u so much now..... but also i promise u tt i'll be strong & stand firm for the family... tts ur b'day wishes... life still has to go on... cant forget abt the times u came back from vietnam & spent time during lunch or dinner at restaurants..... i still remembered me & my bro toasted beer wif u..... seriously, u were the one who taught me how to drink alcohol when i was 12 at vietnam......

anyway, i know that u r happy wif the Lord rite now.... dad, i guess u r not lonely in heaven cos there will always be people around u celebrating ur b'day.... probably playing golf wif u rite now....

so daddy... take care ok? please watch over us thru these times & in the future.... i guess u wanna see claire getting into gd schools & score As in her studies... juz like sis in her younger days? =)

Bless you, daddy.... =)


i would say tt everything has been going on as God planned for us..... & what He did is so magnificent..... =)

from the day my dad passed away.... till the day my family found a suitable niche for my dad's urn to remain inside... God planned it all.... till now, i'd nv think tt everything falls into coincidence....

but b4 all these conclusions, we hav fallen into deep depression of problems & disagreements... the main concern was where to put my dad's ashes.... & because of this, my entire family had so much arguments wif my relatives... but thank God we managed to stand firm in our decisions & giving us strength to uphold our rights.... seriously, it takes alot of effort to convince my relatives until we brought them to the CCK columbarium to let them realise our thoughts... the peaceful surroundings of the columbarium had somehow soften their hearts & minds into believeing tt it is the right place for my dad's remains to lay there in peace... especially my sister, she was so delightful abt us making the right decision.... needless to say, my relatives were happy abt the place too.... at last, i can see their faces turning from sour to the sweetest smiles they ever gave......

i've shared this to my cell & they find it quite amazing....

last thurs, my mum, my bro & i were hunting for the suitable niche for my dad's urn... eventually, we went to CCK columbarium & perhaps after spending abt 10 mins, we found a niche tts perfectly suitable... we were kinda happy & i settled the necessary arrangements at the office... well, we then realised something.....

the niche number were such as: A-03-05-031

A = block name
03 = level
05 = unit
031 = niche no

if u actually re-scramble the numbers, 0133005.... its my dad's NRIC no!!!

after which, we were so thrilled abt this.... went back to tell my relatives abt this...

nevertheless, there's so many gd things happened around... like wat my bro said, "It was a total emotional ride these past few days, but then i could not believe that it will concluded into happy moments."..... the day when my dad's body was cremated, one of my aunt actually saw clouds parting away & then smoke flew up to the skies... at tt point of time, there were no wind indications & its like heaven is opening the way up for my dad's soul to fly up.... let mi tell u this... this was the most unbelieveable testimony i ever seen & heard....

during one of the wake services, ps leng recited a portion from the bible from Psalms 23....

1 The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. 2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, 3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. 5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. 6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

my bro was thinking abt this verses & he mentioned it to ps leng....

v2 says he makes me lie down in green pastures..... come to think of it, the place my dad died on tt saturday morning was on a golf course.... with the finest green grass & natural surrounded around the golf course.... & he collapsed in the middle of the golf course..... isnt it to say tt God planned this? i kinda think tt its a pleasure for my dad to pass away within the natural green pasture... God is so gracious tt He take my dad from the nicest place on earth b4 God can take him to heaven....

so many gd things happened...... which i feel so blessed.... =)

like i said, God planned it all...... =)


its been a week since my dad passed on... over this entire week, my family faced struggles & tensions were kinda sticking around us to worsen our emotions... perhaps i can say these bits of obstacles strengthen me & the rest of my family... over this entire week, i realised the most importance of an unified family values & learn to withstand other kinds of critics & difficulties...

thank God tt although things were going tough within my family, but still God gave us strength to walk down the difficult path... my mum who was emotionally upset by my dad's sudden news, opened her heart to the Lord & allow God to minister to her... i think this was the true moment tt she realised there's nothing to be sad abt my dad's passing-on... but of cos, she still missed him alot... time will heal everything i suppose... now tt my dad is not around, she told all of us to go on wif our lives normally & let not any obstacles stumble upon us... She told us tt we hav oreadi gave my dad the best of its best for the funeral arrangements... and there, our work is done.... surprisingly, all my neighbours & long-time friends of my mum's said tt it was the nicest funeral wake they ever seen... for this, i cant help to say im proud of wat we have gave....

for here, i wanna thank all my friends & relatives who were praying for us... thanks God tt their prayers were somehow answered & enable us to stand firm in our stand...

wanna thank my sis, my bro-in-law... & some of my relatives who went over to vietnam to get my dad's body back... its been hard on u all... seriously, i can tell from the sweat tt they sacrificed during the procedures of the paperworks to be done.... also thank my dad's frenz who based in vietnam... they helped us throughout the hardest times we had.... appreciated tt...

wanna thank you for all my friends who came down to the wake services to show their utmost condolences... needless to say, they were very supportive of me & my family... thanks for their gratitudes....

rite now, i need lots of rest from all the sleepless nights i had for the past few days... will share some of the testimonies of my dad when my energy level r fully charged...

dad, rest in peace... & farewell... i'll see u in heaven one day... miss ya, daddy... =)

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